Wednesday, August 29, 2007

On Memory Loss

Mother Terees's connection to me usually floods me with memories, but sometimes there are terrifying blank spaces. To know I should know and not know hurts. I feel incomplete. Once upon a time, I was mortal, with a normal person's capacity to remember, but since joining the Shadow Guard, I either know far more than I'm supposed to or far less than is comfortable.
Terees asked me the other day what I thought she valued most, for she could not even remember what she was supposed to seek in her One Book Quest. It took me four days of hard thinking, but I believe I've conquered this self riddle: Memory. It cannot be the whole of the answer, but it certainly must be part of it.

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